In Restrospect

Written by Zhey Chua |Posted on March 17, 2008 | Comments

(An afterthought to Warren’s post titled Miracle)

My husband’s blog early today made me see clearly how he sees me.
Yesterday, during the Ladies Fellowship in church, I sat there looking at the different faces of my women church-mates and I wondered, “What makes me deserving to be a part of this group? What have I done to deserve an invitation to this fellowship?” I had to shake myself in reminder that it is not because of what I have or have not done (I still slip, I admit) that permits me a seat in this table of beautiful women, but God’s grace.
Warren sees in me a spiritual growth and a burning desire to know Him more. He sees someone whose passion for God and Jesus Christ climbs the ladder of intensity level each day. He sees the woman he married differently now than when he first saw her. Where before she was all things tumultuous and turbulent and sinful and utterly despicable, now he sees a finer character, a kinder heart, a calmer spirit and a gentler soul… Yes, I probably am all that now…
Praise God for His Grace if indeed I am all that now…
I only see one thing, though… That I was, indeed, a lost and broken soul. A willing party to everything that is sinful in nature, worldly and wretched . And by God’s Grace, I was sought out, found and saved. Who deserves such love and mercy, I wonder? I mean, who deserves such grace? Not I. certainly, not I.
Yet, it happened.
I happened.
Praise God!

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Taken from Deuteronomy 10:20-21
Fear the LORD your God and serve him.
Hold fast to him and take your oaths in his name.
He is your praise; he is your God, who performed for you those great
and awesome wonders you saw with your own eyes