Suicide

Written by Zhey Chua |Posted on June 19, 2008 | Comments

A high school classmate died on June 13, friends seem to make sense out of an old cliche about the thirteenth of the months falling on a Friday but I just can’t. My mind is far from such trivialities. My mind is centered on how a healthy, good looking, promising and fun-loving thirty two year old could end his life when it was just supposed to be starting…

Yeah, he committed the gravest act of all – suicide. When I found out it was that tragic, I stared into space for quite a while and wondered at how shallow his reason could be? Or how mind-blowing enough to push himself towards committing suicide? Ahhh, friends, high school and college batchmates could only speculate. Whatever the reason, I still wish he did not kill himself.

What right does one have to take his own life? None at all! Nada. Zero. Don’t we all know this for a fact? We all grew up knowing by heart that suicide is a mortal sin and only God, the God who gave us this life, has the right to take it away.

I wondered at how my high school batchmate led his young life. We parted ways after my second year in high school because I had to transfer to a new and nearby school. I have not heard much about him until a few years ago when other batchmates started organizing reunions and creating an e-groups for the batch. He barely touched my life, nor I his. But I remember that face so well, that lopsided grin he often wore and that Clark Kent-styled curl that kept falling on his forehead. And now, staring at the last photo taken of him with the rest of our male batchmates, I can only shake my head in bewilderment…

He is not a Christian. He believed in a false doctrine which was fed to him by the school we both attended and by the society that nurtured him. Needless to say, he received shallow and un-Scriptural teachings by a gay university chaplain who spent his free time in the Casino and who smoked like a train.

With all these thoughts running in circles in my head, I wonder, would it be different perhaps had he been a Bible-believing Christian? I pondered at this question for a few minutes and tried to come up with abstractions, and always the answer is YES. Yes, it would have been entirely different is he was a Bible-believing Christian. He would have been still alive today if he was…

What a waste.