To Live is Christ

Written by Warren |Posted on September 25, 2008 | Comments

its been 3months now since we have consistent income coming in
we’ve been surviving from our own savings and a little help from other people by God’s grace
and we’ve been ridiculed from all angles
in attempt to destroy our motives whatever they may be
if only we could have enough money for us to build our own home and be separated from the in-laws
there are times, like this, that I felt so scared from Hazel’s father and family
that one day he would just pop out from one of his deadly moods and do something crazy
perhaps shoot me with his gun i don’t know

I wouldn’t be afraid if he would shoot me though
I am more afraid of the family I will be leaving
I know I will be facing my Lord, but I would worry about my wife
my wife that I promised to be always be with
that I vowed to protect with my life
my wife whom I love and treasure dearly
she is my only family and I always make it my ambition to give her all the comfort I could give
even if I would sacrifice myself
but in these times, I myself would need comfort
I remember Paul in his days in prison
our pastor told me that if he weren’t held in prison we wouldn’t have his epistles to study
its is thru Paul’s sufferings that the message of Gospel has reached us even to our generation
and Paul in his time in prison had no idea where will his epistles reach in the near future
it is my prayer that thru our sufferings we could encourage other Christians out there
and remind them of what it is like being a Christian in this world
which is not to live a comfortable life
but to walk in Christ in a daily manner
for to live is Christ and to die is gain
I just don’t know how long God is submerging us in the pits of this world
but it is in times like these that I would wish God would take my life and my wife’s
living in this world is filled with suffering and pain
especially if you hold the Truth
like a fire that we want to reach and touch
and the closer we get to the flame the more pain we feel
and it would be natural for us to withdraw from reaching the flame
with this what worth am I to be used by God to teach others of the Truths
I would only fail Him miserably
truly a great sinner I am!
and if we’re talking of suffering in this world, I should deserve more