Perfect birthday gift

Written by Zhey Chua |Posted on October 3, 2008 | Comments

Today marks Warren’s 30th birthday. I have wished a month ago for God to give him the best gift and all I had in mind was a baby growing in my tummy then. I was, to say the least, gravely disappointed when it didn’t happen and for a while, I have accused God of holding back to us the very thing that will make us happy. As the days went by, the disappointment gradually dissipated and life went on as usual, all thoughts of pregnancy, having a baby and becoming parents were temporarily shelved in one corner and I didn’t expect to think about ‘em all again, until this morning when I woke up and looked at my sleeping husband beside me… I stared, as if I haven’t yet memorized the way he looks like when asleep and that yearning came rushing back all over again.
But then, I noticed all morning that my husband suddenly has this kind of happy bounce in his walk, that particularly different leap that makes one immediately say that he is one happy human being. As we sat side by side in the hospital waiting room while Ate Tess was being x-rayed (she had an accident this morning too, another story for another post), he just could not stop from talking about last night’s chat with Pastor Neil about the ministry, how excited he is about it, how perfectly God has answered our questions and our prayers. From the corner of my eye, I took one swift glance at my husband and I swear, I saw that happy twinkle in his eye… And I just knew how wrong I was, and how miserably, rottenly selfish I was to even think that having a baby would have been the perfect birthday gift for him. Apparently, God knows better.