Shocking Revelation

Written by Warren |Posted on December 4, 2008 | Comments

It’s been really crazy for the past few days. Blood rushing around our internal system, too many issues and concerns involved that we couldn’t settle down and blog about it. We don’t know where to begin and we don’t know whether we should blog about it. We have reached a point wherein we were like the Catholics who discovered the dark secrets hidden from age old, feeling so undecided on whether to tell others about it or just hide it so our Catholic friends or family won’t get offended. Sadly, I’m talking about the Church Hazel and I went to worship for almost a year in Manila. Our very home church. where we both became Christians, got married, matured and grew spiritually.

Don’t get me wrong, I’m not stating that the church in Manila is doctrinally wrong. My dilemma is that if we’d blog about it, we will be hated by our home church, especially our beloved pastor and yet, if we don’t, we’d be guilty about it. It wouldn’t be right for our consciences to pretend that nothing is going on.

So I will blog about it.

Before I continue, I must first inform you, dear reader, that I don’t believe that our church in Manila has errors in their doctrine. It’s just the way the church members run it that really disturb us.

If you’ve been following our blogs, you’d notice our struggles (mine and Hazel’s, etc.) in considering our home church. We have had issues on whether we would still choose to settle with DCCC (our church in Manila) or we would consider moving to CBC (the church here in the province that we are currently attending). Now, since we are broke and jobless for more than a month already, we really have no choice but to temporarily attend CBC because we can’t afford to commute to Manila every Sunday anymore.

So while at CBC, we noticed a lot of differences, some of which you would read in my last post. It was awhile before the gates to the secrets were opened. And when Doc (a brother in Christ) expressed his thoughts on our beloved pastor (DCCC), I found myself struggling because we were caught between our loyalty to our pastor and between the truth. I don’t see the need to express the details, but let me just say that we cannot deny the accusations because we ourselves have been witnesses to these things, sad to say. Hazel and I just found ourselves going home to digest everything that was said and compare them to our experiences. From the stories we heard and from our own experiences in DCCC, we just saw how two big puzzle pieces formed fit together to paint a bigger, more vivid picture. The picture explains why DCCC isn’t growing and it’s just so sad to find out the reason behind it. So many tears have fallen, from my wife and from Doc’s wife. It was heartbreaking to see the truth about the one person that we all love so much. It’s really breathtaking even as I blog.

Both Hazel and I, and Doc and his wife, we all love our pastor dearly. Hazel and I love DCCC as well and we don’t want to be the ones to burst their bubble. We have always thought of ourselves as followers and not as initiators. We wanted to just leave DCCC and start our new life here at CBC, after all, we became Christians there. However, we could not just leave DCCC without at least expressing our concerns, we cannot tolerate more damage in the church and risk the spiritual growth of its members. Yet, how?

The only solution that we have is to allow Doc to confront our pastor and allow DCCC to search for the Truth as initiated by this post, hopefully. Hazel and I are not strong enough to put in the details here nor confront our pastor about his faults. But this issue must be dealt with anyway.

Hazel and I just couldn’t be more amazed at what just happened to us. Let me just leave you with my self-composed parable for you to get a glimpse of our emotions:

a man was walking inside a dark room looking for the light switch
it was so dark that he could not see anything not even a slight shade of light
his hands were stretched out to feel the walls
as soon as the man found the walls he began his search for the light switch
the man finally found it and turned it on
the room became so bright with the lights on
as the man looked around the room he was shocked
he just realized that the floors of the room had a lot of pitfalls
and falling into one could cause him instant death
but only by God’s grace he didn’t fall into one of them

may God keep us from falling into the pitfalls.

“If we say we have fellowship with him while we walk in darkness, we lie and do not practice the truth. But if we walk in the light, as he is in the light, we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus his Son cleanses us from all sin. ” 1 John 1:6-7 (ESV)

May we walk in the light, even if our sins exposed in the light are too many.