Family Fantasizing Day

Written by Warren |Posted on March 31, 2009 | Comments

Yesterday we had the chance to borrow Doc’s car for the afternoon to do some important matters as it was hard to do them all by commuting. Also, we pass through Hazel’s sister and borrowed her daughter Asia for the rest of the afternoon.

For a day we were like a normal family. We have a car, some groceries, and a kid in the backseat. We would laugh from time to time and would imagine what would our life be like if we have these things: a car, a house, and a kid. Yes, we do envy others who have all these. We would ask God “how different are we to them that we should not have these things?” No matter how many doctrines God has revealed to me that I would respond in awe of His greatness, I am no different from other common man who would also fantasize in having kids, a car, a house.

Perhaps it is one effect after been away from my books for weeks. I purposely hid all my books and kept myself far away from them so that I could concentrate on my day job. You see for me if I read theology I would get really excited. I get so excited that I would forget about everything else. I am that naive. Perhaps it is because of this that I would at times envy others. But one thing’s for sure, I am depraved and built to fail that even if I were involved in the ministry on a certain higher degree, I would still at times envy others. I would only echo what Paul has said:

“Wretched man that I am! Who will deliver me from this body of death? Thanks be to God through Jesus Christ our Lord! So then, I myself serve the law of God with my mind, but with my flesh I serve the law of sin.” Romans 7:24-25 (ESV)